Jealous envy. Feelings of not being good enough. I woke up today. A headache from the day before, and having these feelings from a dream. How I didn't want my girl doing anything with any other. Anything whatsoever. And how I felt it was time for me to go. But I didn't want to go. It was something I really felt so sad and torn up about.

Left it wondering, and feeling. It's OK to be this way. Everyone has feelings. Insecurities, fears. I can have mine too. But I am still a brave person for knowing it, for acknowledging it. And I can be me. Happy me, sad me, any me. And it's  OK me. And then I am accepting me, and winning me. That's all I need to be. Enough  me.

People I admire, have a skill, at listening, inquiry and seeking to understand, and the an ability to talk a lot about something, and make a lot of sense about it.

There's often the worst elements of every area somewhere if you go and find it. The trick is not to find it. Just be content without it.

Calm, and smile. Things are actually easier than I thunk, almost every time. And maybe it OK to over-think sometimes, to strategise, to play out tactics. But maybe most of the time, just let it go and relax and it will still be fine. So carry my smile. Smile and smile. Relax.

In life, when you get rid of one situation or person you don't like, another one comes along. So might as well just learn to like it, and get along. Have standards, and be happy.